Today’s story was submitted by someone who has spent a long time waiting for what she prayed for. I did my best to pen a letter to the world to express her story. While it might have looked like God didn’t hear her prayer, we see that trusting is a big part of our journey here on earth. Hope you enjoy reading this letter!
It can be frustrating to bear your fate, plead for what you want, and not get it.
In that moment, the present denial can feel so harsh. So unfair. Especially if you feel like you’re not asking much, just this one thing. Especially if you feel you’ve followed and obeyed all the “rules”. Especially when your faith is big and you know it’s not such a big thing to ask for.
The first time, I prayed let him be the one. But he left the country and didn’t keep in touch.
The second time, I prayed let him be the one. But his family arranged for him to marry her.
The third time, I prayed let him be the one. But after we got engaged, his true colours were revealed and I ended up in emergency care for domestic violence.
The fourth time, I prayed let him be the one. But he drew out his last breath, and took my happy laughs with him to the grave.
The fifth time, I prayed God let it be done according to your will. I’m trusting you with my life.
The many times I was denied what my heart deeply longed for were hard to process. But I knew it wasn’t an eternal refusal.
While I’m still waiting for my future husband, I’m learning to savour the grace of the abundance of what I have. I’m focused on becoming the woman my future husband needs by his side.
Dearest World, let our hearts not close up to the hope that lives in us, lest we forget that a present denial does NOT equate permanent refusal.
#wanderandpen - 13 hours ago