So...today isn't going too much better than yesterday except now we've got nausea on board this crazy train! Ugh...🤦🏻♀️ .
Well, today might be a bit of a write-off, but there is always tomorrow to start again. 🙂 Today I will give myself permission to take it slow this Monday and let the K.I.S.S. principle guide me.😉
To often I find myself judging me for the days that I am stuck, trapped in pain, unable to successfully find a way to break out of that cycle...like I'm supposed to somehow be able to control this disease by sheer will, and by not getting it to bend to me, I've failed at something monumental...but all I did was come to the same powerless realization that the rest of us do, every single day!! We ARE powerless to effect change upon our disease just by thinking about overcoming! We are always going to be locked in a battle of wills with this demon that's chosen to invade our bodies, but if sheer willpower was enough, I'm pretty sure a good number of us would end up healing ourselves!! .
So it was another lesson in patience, another lesson in letting myself be okay in not being okay
...this life will always be a struggle, but I am NOT a failure because this disease has crippled me for a few days...I am STILL here! And I will always be here until the moment I'm told that I've put in my time and it's now time to rest...until then, I'm going to live the best life I can!! Which includes loads of puppy snuggles, kitty cuddles and people talks that warms the cold places of my heart. ♡♡♡ .
The ONE thing I've learned in all of this is that when you find yourself in a truly perfect moment - don't rush it, brush it aside or waste it...savour it; take in the full essence of it and live in it for as long as you possibly can. It's the collection of these perfect moments that helps get me through all the bad ones in between those good ones...using them to fuel you. Even if you aren't sick, I would encourage you to find those moments and then live as long as you can in them...they will not last forever. .
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