I am taking a break from social media. Definitely for a week. Possibly longer.
If you are subscribed to my Field Notes (basically it’s my newsletter) you know that I have periodically taken breaks from social media. I typically make it about two days before I give in.
I am healing codependency, avoidant patterns, and self abandoning tendencies. As my ultimate form of avoidance and resistance to life or what I’m feeling, I often turn to my phone. I constantly open Instagram to look for that next infograph or post that will validate what I feel, distract me, or will feed me words, ideas, or concepts that I can use convince my self of whatever I needed convincing of; that I’m ok. That I’m healing. That I’m not crazy.
I AM ok, I AM healing, and I’m definitely NOT crazy.
I simultaneously want to throw my phone off the thirtieth floor of the closest building and also “check” what’s new in all of my feeds. It’s maddening.
Instagram is designed to be addictive - thanks to Catherine Price for writing How To Break Up With Your Phone for opening my eyes to this fact. I believe it’s one of the most disruptive things to impact the path to self; it definitely has been for mine.
There are new layers to my work of returning to my self and tuning in to my own core. And rather than be upset with my self that I am struggling to not be addicted to something that is designed to be incredibly addictive, I am going to choose to show up to these moments of my life rather than avoid them. I am going to practice choosing my self.
There is always so much magic that shows up for me in the space created between me and social media. So I’ll see you on the other side. (Or sign up for Field Notes via the link in my bio and you might see me sooner.)
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