The common response to me sharing my Autism diagnosis this week was "it's just a label, it doesn't change anything". But it does change things for me. Everything. Which will also impact hubby & our kids (hopefully all in good ways).
For starters, I finally know the reason I don't understand 'social rules', why I've struggled with learning & working, why I've always felt like I'm missing whatever it is that allows most people to understand nonverbal cues, friendships, conversations - the list could go on & on! Finally feeling like I'm not broken or wrong for the first time in my life is an incredible thing.
Now I'm in the process of 'unmasking', which is scary as fuck because I need to 'unlearn' things I've been doing my whole life in an attempt to 'fit in' and may even discover things I wasn't even aware of. Eg: something I know I do because it's been a conscious effort for as long as I can remember, is copying what others are doing in a social situation. Laughing when others laugh, agree/disagree when it seems like I should be even if I don't get what they're talking about, forcing eye contact (even though it's physically uncomfortable for me). The diagnosis also means I can access services that I couldn't before (because BPD isn't counted as a disability). So far ones we've found out about are: I can use a disability employment provider instead of the regular ones, if I ever try study again I can have an aide to help me & I'm eligible for funding so I can keep up regular therapy sessions. This is huge for me because it opens up a real possibility of achieving things I've never been able to before because of how much I struggle to understand pretty much every part of life.
This is a life changing thing for me.
So.Much.More than "just a label".
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