Sometimes I have to take a deep breath and reflect on the fact that everything I've prayed for, I've already been blessed with. And in the times I didn't know what to pray, 𝐆𝐨𝐝 𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐝.
This time of year, we're all reflecting on what things we're grateful for. Well, one unconventional thing that 𝐈'𝐦 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐣𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝/𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐩𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫𝐬.
I remember the days of being asexual (yes, I "labeled" myself that way in the 90s before it was a thing) wishing that I'd never get married and thinking that having children was a curse. I looked at most families and marriages and honestly thought "𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯 𝘶𝘱 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘺𝘱𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦?" The reality is that not all relationships were unhealthy like the ones I'd witnessed.
There are some loving, healthy and whole families out there and because of my limited view, I was praying against that for my future. Well, I'm glad that God didn't answer those prayers with what I thought I wanted. 𝗛𝗲 𝗯𝗲 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝗶𝗻𝗴!
I'm thankful for a loving, wholesome, healthy family. We're not perfect, but we strive to be better and love God and each other stronger. I couldn't have asked for a better leader, lover, King and protector in Chris or leader, protector and prayer warrior in Ethan. Sometimes we pray for things because we think we know what's best. ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʀᴇᴊᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ/ᴜɴᴀɴꜱᴡᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴘʀᴀʏᴇʀꜱ ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɢʀᴀᴛᴇꜰᴜʟ ꜰᴏʀ? - 54 minutes ago